Are we talking? Are we done?

Stick around long enough, and you'll find that one of the things I hate most about being 20-something in USA today, is dating.

The terms, the lack of commitment, the waiting and wondering, the acting-like-you're-15-till-you're-30 mentality. There is literally nothing about dating that makes me excited. Except of course, actually dating.

That said, recently I've been talking to someone. For those unfamiliar with the millennial terms we use to create labels without commitment, talking is this weird stage before you actually start dating. Its basically what you used to do when you first started dating, but it's our way of doing that without exclusively dating that person. Options and freedom, people, options and freedom.

At this point, I really hope you're catching the sarcasm I am saturating this post with, because, are you ready for it?

NOW THE GUY IS GHOSTING ME. Ever heard that one? Maybe not. Let me explain.

My generation so lacks commitment, we can't even finish talking, we just sort of...stop. Suddenly the responses go from hours to days to weeks before an answer comes rolling in. Eventually? It stops altogether. All because we can't just say "hey I don't think this is going to work out".

It's called ghosting. Its a way of slipping out without saying it. It's literally leaving without commitment! Are you as flabbergasted as I am at the absurdity of this culture? Well just the same, that's the boat I'm in. I feel I can safely say we were talking, even though there was never a DTR(haha this means, you talk about if you're talking talking, or just friends chatting. gosh I hate being this age in this generation). But now I am fairly certain he's ghosting me, so that's awesome.

This was one of my first times kind of going here, and I'll be honest, it took more out of me than I thought it would. It takes a lot of energy to be vulnerable with people! I imagine it will be a little while before I am ready to go back here again.

Pray for me, y'all.

~Ellen