I vaguely mentioned in my last post that I was "interested in someone". and I am, but as per usual for me, it's not without it's complications. since it's been a while, I'm a little rusty, and to be honest, it's so far gone pretty different than it ever has before.
we met, and I would venture to say, that it was fairly soon after there was attraction. but, smooth sailing? not. at. all.
it's been months of hit or miss flirtation and conversation. it's been long weeks of mulling over his bold comments, and wondering why I don't hear from him.
it's watching him speed off, and wondering what I could be doing differently.
it's saying a prayer for him every time I see a car that looks like his.
it's been months of falling slowly, steadily, happily for this guy, who has my brain in a tangled mess, and my heart right along with it.
I wish I could give you a nice long numbered list of all the reasons I find this guy amazing, attractive, and someone I want to get to know. but anonymity is still a high priority for me.
but please believe me, that I have an extensive list for all the reasons he's worthy of anyone's time and attention. I wish I could sit down over a cup of coffee, and talk to all you about all that he is. and about all the little ways I like him, and why he's likable.
but I can't. so just know for now, I need your prayers. he's amazing, but he isn't mine in the least. I just get to watch him at a distance for now. and that waiting place can be painful and lonely.
forever yours,
ellen
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